Life..

الصبح طفل برئ ومساه يبان تجاعيد

وفوق طريق الايام تجرى الحياه مشاوير

ونشوف ملامح الزمن متعاده فى المواليد

واحنا البشر كلنا اعمار ورق بيطير

دايره تدور بالبشر وياّ الزمان بتفوت

دمعه على اللى مضى و دمعة فرح بالجاى

يا حىّ طول مانت حىّ مسيره ييجى الدور

دى حكايه متكرّره من يوم ولادة الضىّ

الصبح طفل برئ ومساه يبان تجاعيد

وفوق طريق الايام تجرى الحياه مشاوير

ونشوف ملامح الزمن متعاده فى المواليد

واحنا البشر كلنا اعمار ورق بيطير

ياللىّ انت عايش حياه بص لها تلقاها

سبحة هنا و تنفرط بالعمر مانشوفهاش

ولا شئ يعطّر حياتنا يمد فى مداها

غير سيره عاشت لنا اكتر صاحبها ما عاش

Hal takblin 7asaballah.. baghlan??? :)

You 're watching a classic on TV and suddenly you are sitting on your old living room with your parents and the rest of your family and your mum is preparing dinner in the kitchen and you 're playing with your toys with your brother trying to memorize every word of the songs and your father is reading the paper and watching and laughing in the same time..
A7la ayam el3omr... I love my parents GRS and I love my childhood memories..God bless those innocent and lovely days..

Mama..

 

Every single minute that passed from Ramadan so far has been the hardest for me as it is my first since Mum's death.. i think i say : Allah yer7amik ya mama like a thousand time per day inside my head.. and in my head, i feel content for God's Almighty's fate and accepting her death..
in my heart i feel complete lost and helpless and like a little kid in dire need of the little simple things of Ramadan I used to do with and for my mum..and I miss her home and our gathering over one meal and I miss her meat balls she used to do for my kids and I miss her move in her house back and forth getting all she has in her fridge to my husband and i miss her urging me to bear with my kids as this is the years of tire as she used to put it..
I cry when folding the cloths and remembering her telling me how bad I am in folding them ..and I feel amazed on remembering how strong and on her feet she was, till her last breath..
I feel so proud of an exceptional, bright minded mum, God had gifted me with..I feel grateful seeing how my best friend still cries over her and urge me that we both go visit her after the feast ISA .. and I pray, hoping I did all that i could taking care of her till her last day..
I smile, hoping to be united with her and dad in paradise ISA and I wish to be able to finish reading the Holy Quran one more time in the last 10 days for her soul.. pray for me that I may ISA..
YARAB tkony radia 3any ya omy..

The Real Me..

Every one of us has two faces..or more..sa7 keda?? Or is it only me??

To my family.. I am hyper..crazy lunatic..nervous and complaining..

To my husband: kind, nervous bardo J , childish, passionate and too loud..

To my friends, great listener, great advisor, great company, great cook and crazy bardo J

To my kids..best mum ever, worst mum ever, playful, firm, childish and nagging and akid akid, crazy..

To my boss:  hard worker, talented, loud, stubborn and very very rash..

To my self ba2a…

Ana min fi kol dol??? I know I am not selfish , I am not shallow, I am not materialistic..

but boy…!!

 Iam too sensitive, too weeping, too deep in thoughts..

To my self, I am a dreamer, a book worm , a woman with a heart of a child, to my self, I am caring , much too caring, I am silent and I am quiet..

And to my self.. I enjoy reading more than anything in this world, the sea, the sofa, the wise quotas, romantic  feelings, motivational poems,  cats and dogs, fashionable ladies, good meals, cozy restaurants and friends’ gatherings..

Mab7besh 7ad yklmny after 10 pm.. I love the 2 hours I sit alone after every one is asleep..appreciate it awyyyy.. appreciate the Shhhhhhh..

I love to write more than the phone calls, I love the e-mails more than the meetings, I love the workshop going on in my mind 24/7..

To my self.. I am a woman who mourns her mum and dad and thinks of them every single day, who still have all her sleep dreams going in her grandma’s house, whom you can win her heart with a kind word or gesture..who enjoys a lovely song specially from school days, who gets happy if she can get a food can without messing the whole cupboard..who loves to write and wishes to be some one one day ( famous blogger w keda), who jumps out of joy if someone shared her status on facebook , who wishes to die w Rabna rady 3anha..

Crazy and wise, loud and quiet, nagging and caring..dreamy and emotional.. sensitive and simple..thats me..

Wouldn’t I just love it when people get to know the real me? Or more..wouldn’t I just love it if I make my husband think I am talented, family that I am caring, friends, that I am quiet and boss that I am …teftker ely teftkro..mesh mohim di..

I am 38, I wish to be more wise,, more smiling..more happy..less sensitive.. less emotional , and less rash..and much much much more closer to God Almighty..

I wish to be more in peace of mind, more organized and less spendthrift! 

I wish to be my kids best friend more than anything..

I wish to grow old with my husband..

I wish to leave a good memory after I die..

I will always be a child.. nothing made me grow from inside not even mum’s passing away..

I will always be caring.. nothing made me cold, not even being shocked by closed ones..

And I will always be a crazy lunatic or then, I wouldn’t be me.. the real me..

3awzin nakol Hum.. Hum ..Hum..

And here it comes! My husband prophecy, me and food..sooner than I expected ..that I can’t hide my fondness  of  a good meal..

So  hard to talk of food when u are on a diet. Well.. mesh diet awy..it is a “Life style” as my doctor puts it.. I have to change my life style to lessen my high cholesterol risks but how could I? when I just love to cook and mess things up in the kitchen..

I am a fabulous cook, no, really, may be you don’t believe me but it is true or so every one who ate my food tell me..

I am a big fan of Italian food, leih ba2a? aslo creamy w fatty w full of cheese and pasta!
 I love to cook, I love this feeling of being able to create a nice meal out of scratch, I love being able to know the ingredients of a dish in a  restaurant just by smelling it though my husband hates it when I do..

It is too hard for me to enjoy healthy food.. kelmat healthy aslaha bested elnafs..I enjoy a good meal that’s for sure,  I love to have my friends over for lunch or create them a great brunch..

I love having a 3ozouma and getting myself too exhausted and tired and cooking for 3 whole days before the big day , then looking back and telling my self : how was I able to cook all this?

I love it when my friends call basically every couple of days asking me for a recipe they ate at my place.. I love buying new colorful napkins or sheets, picking new skillets or a new grill, I love buying cooking books and I  must own more than 50  of them.

 From Julia child to Jamie oliver, from mastering the Art of the French cooking to Mediterranean street food. from Mexican cooking  to Turkish cooking, from Spanish to Indian, from Grandma’s best recipes to Egyptian food..

And isn’t it a bless when your husband tells you by the end of a meal : teslm eidk, elakl 7elw awy 

For sure all of you say by now what a chubby woman I must be, as my best friend tona mocks me when I complain a low budget:”7an3ish ezay min gheir cooking cream?”!!

For sure me and her shared lots of meals and laughs and disappointments..I love it when she comes at my kitchen door like a kitten asking: ha, 7anakol emta? Or tell me, I will make the salad bas 5alsy enty ba2a..

One of my favorite movies is Julie and Julia, a movie talking about a wife who has a very small kitchen ( just like me) and decides to make a blog challenging herself in cooking over 500 recipes in 365 days of Julia Child’s mastering French cooking.. (Julia child is the one who taught Americans how to cook)

The book, the movie and the idea inspired me a lot, she resembles me in a lot of ways.. she is a wife aspiring to be more than a wife.. she has a fascination about cooking and buying expensive ingredients no matter how broke she is.. We both have small kitchens which drives you crazy when you love to cook and bake and make a mess.. we both love to write and made a blog to express how we really feel..

One of my happiest moments when I get this craving to make a new recipe to surprise my little family and  decide  to try it that very moment.. having a cooking book in my hand and skimming the pages till my eyes are laid on “The One” and then running into the kitchen and start turning the dream into reality..

Another lovely moment when my kids share in this.. we set a table and we all wear kitchen aprons and we go.. it is a great moment when we spill flour every where or cover a cupcake with the most naïve icing color.. it is an amazing, endearing moment  when we laugh at our doings and can’t wait till we taste it, when my 3 year old son decides he wants a turtle out of the dough instead of making into heart or star shapes.. to hear them laugh and watch them trying to make a creative shape or color.. it is the best feeling ever.. the worst ba2a when I have to clean all this up J

It won’t be my last talk on food. But actually it isn’t on food, is it, it’s on cooking..a pleasure I feel every time I buy a new cooking book  and boy!  I do this a lot!!

Go3to sa7?? mesh men kalamy ..min elpic?  well, Bon apetit whatever you are eating.. no no..Bon Apetit whatever you are cooking..

Books, books and books...

Min gheir za3l, I can’t conceive those who don’t read, I can’t understand their mind nor what they do in their spare time.. what they do in front of the sea lying on a chaiselong or in a long car trip. What do they teach their kids as an essential to their life, what do they sleep on while lying in bed after a long exhausting day.. how do u relax away from your children or your every day house work ??

mesh 7a3mal fiha ma7saltsh w a2ol I am the best reader in the world, being dodat kotb though, is the best feeling ever, in this blog 7ykon fih kalam ketir on books.

My parents taught me this in a very young age, I remember me and my brother fighting over the newspaper in a very  very  young age, f papa Allah yer7amo 2asmaha, ana  read it first Saturday w Sunday w Monday , my brother Tuesday w Wednesday w Thursday w Friday ely yel7a2 ba2a J

My best gift – w mesh 2asdy ay 7aga 5abisa ya as7aby ely 3arfin en 3id milady 2arrb - would always be a good book, a lovely novel, a great self help book, wise saying books, a cook book J, an autobiography that gives you a push on your life that you TOO can make it.. Salah Jaheen , Paulo Coelho among many many many others.

I try as much as I can to plant this in my children , my big fairy daughter is a junior book worm just like me, her dad and her grand parents , my son is in love with ostaz fawdawy, a Mr. messy man, whose best friends are ostaz tandif w ostaz tartibJ ..

I bet you all read at some level of your life.. 7abibi 3ala mar el3esor is Adham Sabry, he is more a hero than Batman, Superman, Spiderman, James bondo2 w mission impossible with all its parts. He is a life time hero though we know eno min elost7eel an y7okk sha5s ma kol haza , we love the legend, that is Egyptian..Masr heya omy after all..

Read with a cup of coffee, with a lovely piece of music as your back ground, in front of the sea.. take your kids to get a nice coloreful book they will love.
It makes you  feel better for sure, it will N E V E R  make you feel worse..

Studio 28

Studio 28 is where I work or rather where I record my programs.. did I tell you I work as a radio announcer in Maspero building? Aw elmabna as we masperoinans call it??

Dar eleza3a elmasrya..is where I work..it was a granted wish in my life to work there..I wished to get into Alsun and I did (asly tool 3omry shatra w min elaw2al..kont ya3ni..not any more..will get to that..)  and I wished to work in Radio Cairo and I did..up till now mesh 3arfa ezay..one day someone called at home and said I have an exam there!! Min 2adm li ? ezay w fein? Walhi ma3ref le7ad delawa2ty..

Maspero is a unique building in itself..in its location on the Nile and on its staff..nos elnas a23da ma bt3mlsh 7aga!! Ya batakol ya betrghy ya bt3mal gam3yat..

The moment I got there was a dream for me but dreams are always much better than reality..any way..3alshan ma tawlsh 3alikom 2olloy tawly.. a7la 7aga fel mabna heya ostdyohat eleza3a!

It is a different smell, a different atmosphere, a different world you enter once you pass the corridor of the studios.. the old wall paintings, the HUGE tapes you record on. The mega Library where your program CDS are stored in..soot lafat elshrit 3al makna ..stop w te3id lama teglat fi kelma wala tko7..begging elmaktaba for oghnya l soad hosny in her anniversary.. holding your self enk teshtm mohndsat elsoot enha tesib elmobile w t7otlik fasel 3edl lelebrnamag eldiny mesh music fiha tempo w tas2if!

W elnas ba2a…Fouad elmohndas Allah yer7amoh coming to record kelmtin w bas.. amal fahmy.. abla fadila elgameela wel gameela wel gameela.. writing the program..choosing the titre.. thanking elmohndsa elgheir mot3wana 3al etlak by the end of the program..saying your name by the end..Radio cairo presents.. stay tuned to Radio Cairo..

Next month ISA , I will be doing my first interview program, recording with foreigners and English language speaking Egyptians on Egypt after the revolution (2al ya3ni!), ana asly bastghal fi eza3a bel English , sibkom min kol da..ahm 7aga fel mawdo3 .,.mesh eny 7a5od youm agaza zeyada..tasgil 5argy..no, no, not at all.. mesh ana J bas recording ISA fi elcultural wheel, el opera, da ana 7al3ab le3b!!

I am scared, am a bit of a strict..not a person, a radio voice, I can get along only if you let me..i have been running from interviews for years now but I need it now..I do need the change..after my mum..bas da mawdo3 lew7ado…3awz lo a23da ya3ni..

Mashed potatoes????!!!

Why Mashed Potatoes ba2a?? because my beloved husband gave me the idea when he told me : ezay 7tesmiha esm mesh related lelakl?? asl gozy 7abibi knows very well how i love to cook w eat w7yatkom, fa from here i came up with the idea .. mashed potatos ya3ni eih?? batates mahrosa aw puree' , which goes with every dish.. just like this blog that will be on every thing i like not on a particular theme..also people are attracted by food w it may get me more followers, who knows:)

و ده عايش فى أى مجرة كونيه لوحده؟!

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her...

Ladybird

A ladybird stood on my car window today while going to work and it took me back 25 years to my school yard when we used to have our ladybird stories as a gift for those who get high marks by the end of the year.. I always wondered about this insect and wished to see it as i spent years contemplating the little red thing with spots on its back on the cover of my childhood books. It was a childhood dream that came true in my late 30's and it felt so good :) Dreams never die, we may live them someday.

Old Days

Remembering the good old days of school, this poem along with the Solitary Reaper are my favorite..yet this one is a must in these days..Do you know that this poem was a written will for Ahmed Hassenein Pasha and it was his inspiration all his life?!Enjoy for those who appreciate classics.

If you can keep your head when all about you

Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;

If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,

But make allowance for their doubting too;

If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,

Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,

Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,

And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;

If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;

If you can meet with triumph and disaster

And treat those two imposters just the same;

If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken

Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,

Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,

And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings

And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,

And lose, and start again at your beginnings

And never breath a word about your loss;

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew

To serve your turn long after they are gone,

And so hold on when there is nothing in you

Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,

Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;

If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;

If all men count with you, but none too much;

If you can fill the unforgiving minute

With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -

Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,

And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!

IF - Rudayard Kipling

God Rest Her Soul

Having you on my mind and wishing we can discuss all current events as we used to my dearest mum..Love you and miss you soo much.. Allah yer7amik ya omy ya gameela..

وائل غنيم

أسجل اعجابى و احترامى الشديد بوائل غنيم..فكلما قرأت أكثر فى كتاب الثورة 2.0, أشعر بأمل كبير و ان كل شئ قابل للحدوث بالأرادة و التفانى و الرغبة الحقيقية فى اثبات الذات و النجاح..

New Book

The thrill of looking for a new book and buying it and skimming it till u finally sit on your sofa to read it with your coffee is a priceless feeling for me.

And today I went to Diwan in a frequent visit where i ran into Bahaa Taher walking in so calmly and saluting everyone even the poor me standing in the cooking section! it was such a pleasure watching this iconic figure so simply asking a young author to come sit with him and hearing his latest and listening to both of them quoting from great verses or sayings.

Today was a lucky day for me to watch how great people should be that simple..this is where their greatness lie :)

Today I bought: بحار الحب عند الصوفية for my favorite author: Ahmed Bahgat.

Old Fashioned ????

I know I am old fashioned but this song always gave me a push to go on since I was young..when playing it on my car cd, people around me look at me as: eih elmagnouna di ? :D 

Heart Breaking Pic

The most pic that breaks my heart in all revolution pics..howa fi nas keda!!!!

من ذكرى الثورة فى( دماغ احمد شفيق) : الاخوان وهم بيروشوا امن الدولة وهم بيصلوا

Some Politics Talk

For sure these people who went down and left their homes and never knew if they were going back to their kids had a reason..for sure they want as much peace as you do..

For sure they want to live happily but with dignity too..

For sure we all are affected by the economical crisis we are in and we all want to live..may be we - facebook people- we all have homes and jobs, we all have some one whom we can ask for money, we all admit our kids to schools and can get them their favorite kind of chocolates..

But there are others who just can't , may be we just need to feel them, feel those who have no clean water to drink nor a proper place to live in, those who has to work 7 days a week and have no rest to get their every day necessities, those who have no work at all..we can not be elite this time.

My dear friends electing shafik, For God's sake..let your conscience judge..if we wel Al7madullah never lived it, it doesn't mean that there aren't others suffering day and night with it,, it can not be because we fear the rules of ele5wan, that we submit our brothers as a scarfice so we may live happily ever after..

Just think about those who will be detained, killed or put in jail after shafik wins..my words are not organized but they are coming from my heart and i am not going to re-phrase it..this is how i feel..mesh 3alshan a3ish merta7a w baly rai2, army elnas elgalaba ely malhmosh dahr fi eidn elnizam tany...Plz think it through..

1st Post..

I am perfectly content with a good book and a hot cup of coffee :)